Virtual Diary Log 24

So as soon as I start my job and figure out when pay days are I'm going to call the lawyer and make the appointment. While I have this free time I should probably write down everything I remember up until this point. Man this sucks. I hate this for my daughter and honestly for me too. I'm going to forever be hurt by this and at some point it wont bother me anymore but I will always remember it. I'm fucking depressed bro. Like for real I'm in a dark place and I don't want to seek help because my friend just lost her dad and she needs me. My other friend is a mom and works full time so she doesnt really have time and I don't know, it feels weird to talk to his mom about this and my feelings and my mom will just tell me the same thing she has been this whole time. I don't know what to do. I feel so numb.