new year new me? 4.1.26

Ah new year, 2026. I don't know how to feel to be honest, I feel the change yet nothing has changed. The Sun just rolls around and we celebrate.

Stranger things ended, and it was absolute bumsssssss. Especially the last episode was so rushed and just badly written. Ofc you prob all ready guessed since well I'm here in spacehey, but I loved Byler. Awh man, it would've made so much sense but yet again I gave too much hope on two straight dudes.

What pisses me off the most is how you can just see the capitalism shining through the screen. I swear everything capitalism touches dies X_X 

The duffer brothers ruined an amazing show with greed.

 I guess I also feel sad about how I spent eight years watching that show only for it to just burn. It's scary how I grew up with the characters. The "kid" cast graduating, moving on to other parts of their lifes... I'm scared. Soon I'll have to move on too..

I'm excited to graduate and go to a different school, move out to a different city, yet I'm scared. I feel so childish yet idk 

I'm an adult that's also a teen and a kid at the same time.

My oldest brother will get married in june, and they'll probably have kids soon. I'm going to be an aunt, which in a way I'm excited for yet I'll be so far away after graduating. I want to be part of the kids lives, but I also have to take care of school, money, rent, social life AHHHHHHHHHHH 

Why are we so grown... This year when I'll turn 20..(yet I won't be graduating this year fuck) will be the last year all my siblings and I will be in our twenies...sooo MUCH has changed in these 10 year from 10-20, will it be same with 20-30 and 30-40 and so on, or will time just slow down. I don't want that either... to slow

UGH

signing off - scared kid in their soon to be twenties...well in 7 months so not THAT soon

running up that hill - kate bush