Is there something wrong with me?

I’m starting to think no one cares about me. I’m pretty positive this is just a BPD split and I’m just freaking out for no reason… but I’m so scared. Im starting to think the people around me are being nice to me to make me feel better. Like they aren’t real. Like- it’s all in my head and none of this has ever been real. 

Maybe I sound schizo, which I’m not, but I genuinely feel this way. Idk who to talk to without feeling like I sound attention seeking. I feel so lost.