New Year! First Blog!

Happy (late) new years!!!! 2026 hell yeah!!!!

First blog of the year :) no real point here, just saying a bunch of stuff

i’ve been stuck in a bit of a rut recently where every time i try to write something, here or otherwise, my mind just blanks. so uh, sorry if i sound braindead here.

my year started pretty well :) me and a few of my friends went to the mall yesterday, just as we had a year ago, and aughgguhfuh it was fire i love those guys. i got TWO sweaters, mueheheh. Friendship Sweaters, to clarify. (one of them was a christmas gift and the other was to match with my bestie that im legally obligated to mention every blog) i forgot how nice it feels to just Be with people and joke and talk to them. sometimes i’m hesitant to hang with the rest of my friend group because i get nervous about them Not actually wanting me there so yesterday brought me back to earth in a way.

since i already mentioned getting a christmas gift earlier, i might as well elaborate. this is borderline glazing but auifuvgyiavrgifuylfegef. i worry that i came off as embarrassed or ungrateful when my friend gave it to me because i was absolutely tweaking mentally, i just didn’t want to lose it in the middle of the mall. (i did somehow end up losing this fat plush chicken he gave me, which didd bum me out a little)

aaauhauhsshj. i’m just not used to people really Knowing me or going out of their way to give me gifts and hang out. hashtag friends with really good people.

to be a buzzkill and complain, i am a little disappointed about not being able to do this sort of stuff on a whim like others can. it’s not anyone’s fault really (if anything, maybe my own for being terrified of driving), but it does suck having to tell my friends that “noo i cant do this because my mom has work every day except the middle of the week” or “noo i cant go to this place because my mom thinks im gonna get kidnapped and have my organs harvested.” a more bitter part of me wonders if all of this would be easier if my dad were here, since he was always up for me going out and doing teenager things without a million hoops to jump through. i’ve forgotten what it’s like to have a voice in the house for me other than myself. there’s another hangout i want to go to tomorrow, but i doubt i’ll be able to go because there’s just Zero time to clear it with my mom between now and then.

Complete tonal whiplash: guys look at my profile pic. noelle holiday is DEAD. jay kay. i wanted to get into the habit of changing my pfp seasonally to represent my interests more so i was like “huh christmas is over so noelle doesn’t really fit anymore” and then BAM bestie draws one of my favorite phighting characters. he’s (in reference to friend, sorry Darkheart from Phighting) so cool.

speaking of phighting, i really don’t talk about that game as much as i should considering the fact that i’m like insane about it. i’ll have a coherent, not cringe thought about it eventually guys trust.

uhhh not much else to say here. i should start like an mlm scam so i can plug that at the end of every blog. support my small business on etsy i resell those corny spencers t-shirts. byeee