Yet another corny vent ignore ts

Why am I so intense with my love or not intense enough? It’s so frustrating. It’s like i can’t keep relationships or even friendships becuase of it. I either care way too much to the point it makes me seem creepy and overbearing, or i don’t care enough and i seem like an apathetic asshole. I just wanna love normally. What’s even worse is i don’t even know why i act like this. It’s so fucking horrible. I’ve had full on breakdowns in the past over an assumption, not even a slight tone change, just an assumption. It can be tone changes too. And my brain decides that the moment I feel a little off or paranoid that i’m correct.