I am a paranoid mess

I know a lot of people say this and mean they’re afraid of ghosts or some B.S. like that, but i’m genuinely so paranoid that it affects me on a daily basis. I wake up in constant dread and always have the feeling of impending doom. I trust absolutely nobody because i convince myself they’re people of the past that i’ve done wrong trying to get back at me. I feel as if I can’t tell anyone anything because they’ll either expose me or dislike me. I hate opening social media to see a lot of notifications or activity because i’m scared it’s something bad or something extremely horrible that i’ll have to fix or deal with somehow. Every tiny little sign that something i’m nervous about will happen, even the smallest one, I panic immediately. It’s become one of the biggest issues in my life. I hate going to sleep because i’m scared i’ll wake up in dread or something will happen the next day. I hate waking up because i’ll feel the extreme sense of impending doom. I’m anxious about everything constantly. There’s always a small sense of panic in me every second of the day. I can’t add irl friends back on public social media accounts because what if someone sees i’m vulnerable and targets me? I can’t date or befriend people properly because it feels like i question them deep down all of the time. i need to be reassured every second of the day.