1/2/26

okkk so... idk what to write about honestly. Me and Simon reconnected and that was really great, I'm so happy to have him in my life again, we're fr twins like platonic soulmates type shit. we get along so well even though it's been like 3 months since we last spoke.

i kind of feel bad for him though because in my goodbye message that I sent him before I blocked him, I said "I gave you two weeks and you barely talked to me, i gave you the chance and you didn't do anything with it, blah blah blah." paraphrasing ofc but still yk.

kind of feels like he doesn't really wanna talk to me but is remembering that and is making himself talk to me but yk. if that's the case then there's really nothing i can do about that.

me and mom are going to a concert on the 6th :) it's gonna be in the city, so we get to drive like 4 hours to it. maybe we could go to the mall too, especially since it's like the ONLY mall in our state that actually has shit going on there and actually gets visitors. Our local mall rn is sooooo dead, the only good stores in there are Hot Topic and Spencers, and even those are kinda dying and only being held up by the alt community 

i sent nic like 14 messages today and he didnt respond sooo i decided that I'm just not gonna message him anymore and let him live his life. I want to say that I understand but like, if i had a person in my life who VERY OBVIOUSLY liked me romantically and acted like I do... I might feel a little suffocated tbh, but i'd sooo be into it. ok but that's kind of getting off topic like. idk. what am i yapping about bruh.

I've been thinking of going thrifting again, I miss the high of finding a good piece and being able to wear it out, it's like a gambling addiction lol. actually maybe i just want to spend money i guess T_T

ANYWAY yeah im really happy me and simon are talking again. I missed him so so so much, even if i was mad at him at some point while we weren't talking.

I've been really getting into val even though it lags my computer so bad... it's kinda addicting, but at the same time it's not overwatch and it doesnt have mercy. sage, i think her name is, is the only close character to mercy that i've played. Reyna is cool too, i unlocked her cause i thought she was some cool goth chick and so far i haven't been proven wrong!

I FINALLY STOPPPED MAINTAINING THANK GOD. I lost about 1.5lbs :D pretty cool if you ask me. affter like FOUR fucjing days of maintaining.