I love/hate being 18 :x

like, cmon, why one day im crying because i look like a stupid kid and then i look so old, something is wrong w my mind or i changed in one day. I always wanted to look more mature because i was feeling ugly for that reason, now I look too old, I will never understand how my body works. 

I feel jealous when im watching tiktok and some 14 or 16 girl is there with cool makeup, cool clothes and having a life, like, why im not enough to feel pretty, because i know im pretty, i just dont feel it.

IDK BYE