might need glasses >.>

i cant play video games for the time being :[

for my entire life, ive always had 20/20 vision!! when i was kid i wanted glasses so bad that i faked needing them just for the aesthetic lmfao (they looked horrible). i havent gone to the eye doctor in YEARS, and i went for the first time a few weeks ago. i only mention it now because the dr asked if i was straining my eyes in front of the computer screen, and i said no without even thinking what that could mean. i have now spent the past few weeks realizing how much suffering i have imposed on myself accidentally lmfaoo. for the past year i havent been able to play video games for extended periods of time without getting sick/headaches, and after the appointment i noticed how i am literally this emoji whenever i am on my computer: >:| 

i stopped playing video games thinking it was because i wasnt enjoying them anymore. i would get on, and then get off within 15 mins. i now believe that it wasn't coming completely from feeling unmotivated, it was just association with the nausea. (getting off before i got sick). 

this sucks!! i dont want to use my insurance covered appointment so soon after using last year's. UGH