mi vida 03/17/21

anyways, hi lately i have just felt so so so sad, i just overthink every single thing. i barely have friends the rest are acquaintances, only hang out with my best friend & boyfriend and sometimes i feel like they are bored of me. university is ok! not a fan of my major but it is going to help me in the long run i suppose. truly haven't felt alive since fall of 2019, everything else is just there. unfortunately i should not feel that way but i can't help it. i enjoy the new scenery of my life atm but i don't feel "alive" as i did september 2019, but in the end it was toxic and i was not focusing on my self. even now if my life just is so bland and simple i try enjoy every minute of it. but i am trying to aim in self discovery and yolo! anyways yeah thats my midnight thoughts. 12:50am