HaPpY NeW YeAr !!!!!!

This is my first ever blog post, so I'm just gunna roll with it. I want to write a bit about my journey through 2021 and what I want/expect from 2022. I am feeling veryyyyy optomistic tbh. I have had some ideas for a while, and I think now that the holiday season is finished, I can finally just focus in on myself a little more.

So 2021 was WILD. I lost a very close friend of 12 years at the cusp end of 2020, so 2021 was the first year in over half of my life without her..... it has been a rollercoaster. I truly feel it is for the best, tho. I won't go into too much detail, but 2 things that stick out about the toxicity of the relationship was the possessiveness and my lack of privacy. I found it very hard to date or even have other friends without feeling like I was doing something to harm the friendship. My loyalty was undying to this girl, and yo that's also on me. 

Anyway, we were living together when our relationship fell apart. I slept in my brother's living room for 2 months before we found a place for ourselves. VERY thankful for my family.

We spent the year in a stinky cockroach building, moving out soon here. Made some friends in the building, made some enemies, this place was definitely what i needed when I needed it.

OK now I will rapid fire some highlights of 2021:

1. found out I have a gluten sensitivity 

2. had to get fumigated twice

3. milo turned 2 (cat)

4, turbo lost 2 pounds! (obese cat)

5. new big girl glasses

6.NEW LAPTOP (havent had a computer since I was 17 omfg)

7. 3 tattoo appointments

8. 2 calls to the police about some man trying to follow me home

9. lost like 10 lbs

10. opened up to my brother about my trauma

OVER ALL 2021 was ok

ok im getting tired

So first off, 2022 is already a sick number. Something about it just pops to me.

I feel like this is the first time in my life that I am not going through life having somebody else affecting it. Just peace, and I feel truly safe expressing myself. I enjoy style, so that is something I'm excited to drive into in 2022.

Also, cultivating my intuition. I'm thinking tarot reading, and I'll post my findings on here maybe!

ok ya quick nye resolution list !!!!

1. journal a bit every morning or evening

2. finish my book i started in 2020

3. be even COOLER

4. smoke lesssss weed

ok I think that's all the blogging I have in me tonight. If you read this, I love you. If you didn't, I still love you.

OK GOODNIGHT XO

B