Evil boredom?

Get so bored you turn evil...At least its very humbling. Im here on earth because i got bored of not existing probably...I love repeating things but i dont want to repeat THAT thats boring...Its very paradoxical? But when im bored i get into fight or flight. Ahh! Something needs to happen! FUCK! Right? I bite and for the love of god bite. But! I am easily mesmerized by the beauty of the world. If ugly music and music where a lot happens and it trills and it shakes and it rumbles and it jumps i can be mesmerized of course. I am prone to hypnosis. What is there not to love about beats and sounds and sounds that repeat? Now things are happening. WOW! I exist a lot again. Humbled and...then renewed