1/1/2026

00:00

it’s the new year
i know because the clock says so
everyone made noise about it and then it was quiet again                                       
it doesn’t feel new though
WAIT WAIT WAIT
i think i missed something but i don’t know what it was

I’m changing schools                                                                                             again?
they said they’ll miss me                                                how many times has it been now?
i nodded and smiled
Who r they?
i can’t remember them
it's getting blurred
DONT REMEMBER
maybe it’ll come back later
or maybe it won’t

i ate pizza because there was a new year discount
it felt important to mention that
like proof?
i played roblox after i was done eating
made some friends there a lil while ago
it's nice
the horror game was good
i wanna make one too
not now
but someday

I’ve been thinking about dyeing my hair
maybe at the end of this month
or the start of the next
i want midnight blue
i like blue
i wish i was blue
i will look silly

?ʇnoqɐ ᵷuᴉʞʅɐʇ noʎ ǝɹɐ ʇɐɥʍ

i need to save money for a lot of things
for hair dye
for paint
yes
i ran out of colors again
How tho i didn't really use colors last year
maybe i will this year 
i need to draw
WHAT WAS THAT?

dad’s in a good mood
things seem okay
actually more than okay
everything feels too smooth
LOOK AWAY
we fought again

sorry
what was that  

should i get a goldfish?
the fishbowl is still empty
it looks wrong like that
too clean
too quiet
but will i be able to save it this time?
IT ROTS! IT ROTS! IT ROTS!

no
stop

maybe i’ll write here every day
or maybe i’ll miss a few
i don’t know
i’ll try
trying feels like enough for now

it’s getting late...

didnt the day just start??