things i've done after you

- thought about getting back into weed (bad idea. connected the dots. started it after halloween.)

- stupid mall trip turned south, got consoled

- turned your name into something that fit another syllable

- pulled my wisdom teeth

- under anesthesia, didn't tell my family about my new name (thank god)

- under anesthesia, didn't tell my family about you (thank god)

- under anesthesia, didn't text you (thank god)

- under anesthesia, didn't do the very thing i argued with you about before we last talked (who cares)

- checked if you were still loving me from a distance, whatever the hell that means

- got sickening satisfaction if i saw your name there in my views

- thought i'd get better if i started to see it less and less

- didn't get better. saw it less and less

- remembered the cd of mine you still have

- remembered the cd of yours i still have

not a lot, but it's felt like quite the bucket list.