social media addiction, goals, and society

since i was a kid ive always been on the internet, more on youtube specifically.

then, i watched some things i shouldnt watch at a really young age? (6 years old i think). i didnt care before because i didnt know ofc but nowadays i think this is really sad.

ive been on the internet for almost all my life, and my point is: i could have lived way more than i did when i was a kid, but i didnt. i was playing animal jam 6 hours per day lol.  half of me is on the internet.

AND thats what the companies want, they want people to be addicted and they want to gain money from exploiting people's mental health, culture, addiction, anxiety, sense of self, relationships.. things that make us human.

what if in the future, the chronically online ppl will be the underclass? and our addiction is giving money to the ones above us for them to live the life that we will be seeing jealously in our screens? well this is already happening, but i fear for the future the most, especially with the short videos now idk.

i realized that, when i spent the whole day with a friend irl i felt so fresh yk? and then i came back home and i spent the rest of time playing with this friend and on discord talking with people. it was fun, and i didnt feel much anxious like the other days.

but the day after that was miserable. i spent the whole day procrastinating, and at night, i wondered why the day seemed so short and why didnt i do what i wanted to do. the answer is my addiction to social media <3 specifically tiktok or whatever keeps my mind from thinking idk sometimes its youtube too, my attention span on this day was horrible.

im afraid of this, i have many goals but this is stopping me from them.

i feel that my time, my social skills, and myself has been stolen from me, and this is crazy hahahha.

im also tired of seeing everyone in my family fixated on their screens too, i always talk about this with them but its like im talking to a wall. i always talk about this with them because they have a new kid rn, my brother who is 4 years old, im scared he will get addicted like me or worse. 

and i think they understand that, but they avoid it, i think its because they're tired too..

but i dont blame my parents, i blame the tecnofeudalism, we are servants of this system.

im tired of the way this world works, but i hope that i get out of this addiction and work for a better future for myself.

i hope this can wake some people up, and encourage you to live life. we only have one life and death awaits us. we shouldnt waste our time with trashy shit on the internet or expectations of other people.

if u have something to say, say it. i want to hear someone's point of view too :3

here is the video that i watched that made write this:

https://youtu.be/Bm2Q9HkbLsQ?si=aS5V57iVhWYVRXGz

I also recommend the book "Fahrenheit 451" by Ray Bradbury, which made me think about this subject for the first time. I read it two years ago, but I still remember it well because it impacted me; the story in the book doesn't seem impossible to happen in our future, given how things are going.

but yeah thats it i just wanted to tell how i feel about this, maybe what i wrote its not the absolute truth but thats why im posting this blog too, i want to interact!!

well, good morning/afternoon/evening for everyone reading this, goodbye ✨