older poem by me

would you notice if i was late?

it's not like me

im always too early and too much.

i don't give you space

space is empty and im not.

thoughts that give me headaches 

keep me from sleeping,

keep me from running. 

tied down to them, forced to forget

i don't wanna be stuck anymore.

i have to talk about it to forget.

circles over circles,

"love you"s over "love you"s,

there's not enough time to appreciate all of it. 

all i can write are lullabies.

still,

keep me from sleeping, 

keep me from running.

i wish my thoughts would let me go

let me be free, irresponsible.

raising adults and kids alike

no payment except pride and dread

born into a factory.

tell me about your purpose 

my empathy drags me down

yet you are lower

but i will never drag you up

the rope is torn.