Woooo New Years!

I thoroughly regret not blogging more during break because UHUHUGHHHHHHGH. Anyways i stayed the night at one of my friends houses for New Years. 👍 that was fun. However one of my friends tried to ~confess their love for me 🥺🥺🥺~ Via making a private snap story, adding me and saying they have a crush on me. Like, they’ve hinted at it before and i was like, haha yeah. BUT UEGHHHH. It was thoroughly HORRIFYING. They’re sweet-ish. But ABSOLUTELY NOT. (Ō.Ō). I realize this makes me sound like one of those people that complain about this stuff but it’s actually so weird like. We’ve d8ed before TWO times and it didn’t work out. Like, leave me alone dude. Anyways other then that uncomfortable encounter it was really fun! Though some old men did scream at us but it wasn’t anything we couldn’t handle. \_(-w-)_/ .  We kinda messed up the countdown quite a bit but it was still super fun! We talked and talked and talked. I don’t want to go back to school on Monday and i don’t want to have to see my gym teachers again. I’m not sure if i already wrote about that or not but if i didn’t I’ll write about it later. I’m dreading seeing my gym teachers and i feel like I’m on the verge of an existential crisis because of that and also the fact i messed up the countdown and time feels fake but messing up the countdown wasn’t that big of a deal but me dreading gym is. Part of me just wants to skip gym so i don’t have to see my horrible teachers. But I need to get better grades in gym and i know it can be fun but my teachers just ruin it a lot. Not to mention the constant pressure from classmates. Hold on i gotta write pressure down and pin it to my board. Idk why i wrote that you wouldn’t know if i didn’t write it lol. Ive gotten a bulletin board and I’ve started pinning words i like or find interesting to it so i can use them in poems or songs. I saw a character in a book i like do something similar and i figured why not. Anyways it doesn’t help the pressure in gym from peers when the teachers are basically middle school bullies. I think i have like four or five people in my gym class I actually feel safe around. I’m very thankful for them though because in an environment that feels like I’m falling in a lava pit its nice to have some encouragement alongside you. Anyways i might update later. Happy New Years to all! I know the holidays are very stressful for some people so i wish you all a very peaceful rest! With love, Maddex!