My life is hell right now

My life just feels like a mess right now, and it fills me with anger that I cannot do anything about it because I don’t have the control about it.

I don’t really want to get to intimate about it, but right now I’m feeling vulnerable about what is going on with me and my family, it just sucks, it’s unfair and sickening that sometimes some members of your family will be the worst enemies you’ll ever have, family hurts more than friends.

I want to start having independence, I want to go outside and make new friends, to actually have a life, I’m tired to be treated as a child, to everyone thinking that I am dumb and useless.

I want to have my own things.