new years

I genuinely can’t tell if I wish I could relive the beginning of this year or if I never want to be in a position like that again.. like YEAH I don’t wanna be like that again but I was happy as freak then and that’s not to say I’m not now but like was I happier then than I am now or am I happier now than I was then?? 🤔🤔 I wonder if I would be the happiest if i could take what was happening with the people in my life then and my mindset now???

or am i just bored rn