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𖦹 8-BALL 𖦹

Not wanting to share the song you fell in love with because you have almost formed a romantic bond with it, which feels so much like a true human relationship. It's making you feel something, a feeling that you can't ever get from anything else. To you, every single word sung is deciphered by your brain so intimately. The images of you enjoying the song alone or maybe shared with a certain someone run through your mind. You actually love it when you hear it on the bus, the metro, or even in the store, because the image of you singing this song alone in your room flashes before your eyes each time without fail.   

Actually, now that you notice, it's playing almost everywhere. On and on and on... it can't be, can it? How has it become so well-known after so long? You seem pretty elated and somewhat proud now that the song is getting popular. The singer will not just be recognised for their beautiful work, but there's this small, selfish satisfaction of a 'confirmed' new album that makes you so happy.

Hm, now that you look around and see how everyone is enjoying your song that was barely known to anyone for so long, the 'onlyness' of it being known just by you has become such an attractive thought. An extremely weird surge of jealousy hits you. Is this jealousy? The relationship you have with your song felt too intimate for it to become something so public, and this feeling of envy seeps in as now it feels as if it's not just yours anymore; maybe you do not want this song to be shared... Maybe this was the selfish side of you that does not comply with your morals of not policing people who enjoy this song because they just like it, and not because it's an emotional experience for you.

How silly it is that a piece of art that's meant to be enjoyed with everyone, when it is loved too deeply by one is hit with the sudden popularity of it becomes a painful feeling. The 'I knew it before you all' and 'you don't love it as I do' slithers in your mind the moment when someone has the guts to show you the song you have always loved as it's something new; But how strange it is that a sense of possessiveness took over you when it never even truly belonged to you. The need to let everyone know that it's not just something new to you and that you have memories tied with each beat and every single lyric, but oh God, is it ever that serious? Maybe just to you.

And you decide to keep it that way.

The realisation that you're becoming what you hate in music fanatics helped you figure this out. In fact, you also realise the only reason you ever got to inhabit this song is through the first share of the artist who created it through their own memories.

You wonder if they get a little jealous, too.

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