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BIG RANT IM JUST YAPPINGG
I dont know if its just me, or if im the problem.. but its so hard to find/KEEP friends. Like its not that i dont try, or that i dont communicate, or socialize bcuz i do even tho im an introvert. But when it comes to making friends either online or in real life its seems rlly difficult. Maybe its just the situation im in bcuz i live in a very isolated place and i never go out, not by choice but bcuz im not allowed to. I Dont go to school anymore but i do have a job. I work in a bakery so i dont talk to customers but i talk to my coworkers but they are all alot older then me. And a huge problem i have is that my family is religious and im an atheist. So they try to surround me with more religious ppl which makes it even harder bcuz i wouldnt be able to have a strong bond when we have different beliefs. And for online friends, iv had plenty of online friends some lasted long some lasted only a few weeks. But it feels like with the friendships that actually last awhile something always goes wrong, like we either grow apart or theres some sort of issue. A while back i had this friend that i made after not having friends for along time so i was rlly happy i had found someone i clicked with, we talked for months with no issues and suddenly they became distant and when i tried to talk to them about it they wouldnt communicate with me or give me any explanation on why. We ended up having to end the friendship bcuz of it and didnt speak for awhile, this was rlly hard for me since i had rlly grown to like them (platonically) and it was the first time i actually missed someone that deeply. When christmas came around i messaged them again (i know bad idea) and we started talking and they actually communicated with me this time but they said they still wouldnt be ready to try again or start fresh and they didnt think they ever would be. Now idk if they just didnt like me or they rlly where having issues like they said they where but its making me feel hopless in finding any more friends that i can rlly click with and bond with. Idrk what to do anymore when it comes to making friends so advice would be appreciated.
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vicky ⏾
i have always struggled to socialize and interact with people in real life so i’ve turned to the internet and in theory you’d be like “that seems much easier than being face to face with someone as a person with crippling anxiety !! :D” and it can be, im even able to look up conversation starters whenever i want but not even online works !! i have only had my boyfriend as my only friend for such a long time- im not complaining but it is always good to expand and meet new people and i have not been able to do that D: sometimes i fear i am meant to be alone and i’ll become a crazy dog mom or smth XD
Exactly dude, after it goes on for so long you start to feel like you'll be alone forever..
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Kiefer
We can be friends if you want