Life as a teenage girl ⋆˚꩜｡

27/12/25

long time no see, I haven't been active on here in a while so here's a little vent.

I feel like an outsider in my own family, its hard to explain but I don't feel like I belong, I tried explaining this to some of my friends but they never really got the point I was making.

my family feel like strangers, strangers who are forced to love me but don't like me, my mother herself used those words, that she "loved me because she has too but doesn't actually like me".

and yes that hurts but its not the thing that bothers me the most, its that no matter what I do, I don't think I could ever actually be a part of their family, my parents and sister are so close and im just here.

my sister says something my parents remember, I say something its forgotten and has to be said a million times over to actually be processed or done. if even.

I'm grateful for what my parents give me but sometimes i wish i could get some love, i cant remember the last time I hugged my mother.

thats all just scratching the surface but i dont want to go on forever.

-Nica