A little thoughts about my christmas

So 3 years ago my great-grandfather passed away. And after that… nothing feels the same anymore. Yea I like Christmas even if everyone is arguing around. But my Uncle… he see him, not only remember but he see him like he was there. And yea he was his father and I understand that my uncle started crying after hour, this is probably really hard for him, I was close with great-grandfather and I still can’t go to his grave without crying, so if it’s hard for me: for my uncle must be harder, specially if he sees him. And my great-grandmother not helping in all of this situation: she always mention great-grandfather, she left a plate for him hoping he will come back. And I know I know everyone experience this differently, but because of her, I think my mom, me, my uncle my grandmother all of us are… sadder… if you know what I mean. 

Sorry I need to let it out if me