I struggle with my gender

This is gonna sound like a stupid petty “I need to label myself” thing but I don’t mean it like that. I hate gender it’s completely made up by society so I’m contradicting myself just by struggling with this especially because I hate labelling myself in general. I know I’m atleast mostly a girl but I might be she/they?? It’s even more stupid sounding to me because it’s not even like I’m switching completely just a lot of the time I feel like there’s something missing but whenever I feel like I’m more androgynous looking, say when my hair is out of sight, it’s really easy for me to think of myself as something else I love being a girl and I identify with that, the most so far I’ve been considering is she/they but it just feels dumb (to me) to be so conflicted about this because it’s only a slight change. If someone else was in the same situation though I wouldn’t think of it as dumb though you know? I don’t know. Okay uhhh yeah I’m posting this to maybe get some help? But I don’t know how anyone would be able to help with that!

Okay thank yew for reading the whole thing if you actually did!