Relationship w mom

Does anyone have a weird relationship with their mom? Like They can’t feel anything towards them, not love but like just a connection, something with their mom, and you feel like you force yourself to just do stuff w her like;

I always had a great relationship w my mom as a kid but when I became a teen I just took the biggest step away from her and I gen do not feel love for her ever since ? Its not that I don’t love her nd shi like she’s my mom but its not a deep feeling, I can’t feel it and I can’t stop myself from thinking like that. I hate having her tell me ily cuz I have to say it back and idk she just annoy me, everything abt her annoy mr and I don’t like her having around me, knowing what I do etc..but I do laugh w her sometimes and shit.

 Does anyone feel this way too???? 

The only moment where I complimented my mom was when drunk bc she was crying since I decided to drink again but I dont even remember saying that like bru.

Idk it feel like a hassle to be w my family I dont actually love deeply any of them. I can accept them and shit bc they are family members and had done a lot for me but idk I dont feel anything towards them. I laugh more with other people than with my own family