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The boredom of peace and happiness

Being raised in an dysfunctional family made me a pretty intense person. I've always had intense friendships, i abused substances, i would unleash the anger i felt at home on randoms and eventho i don't like to admit it. I liked to stir the pot and made people feel the way i always felt at home. This was a pretty shitty thing of me to do but that's a long time ago and i already apologized and learned my lessons.

Now im pretty stable, i have a few friends i known since childhood, my family and i get along great and i married the perfect husband. I am super happy, but also bored. I wouldn't wanna switch, but sometimes i miss the intensity and rage. I am 25 years  old, married when i was 23 which is pretty young and i love my marriage but i often hear stories about people my age that feel real heart ache, have petty fights or other dramatic stuff and when i get asked whats going on in my life im just like: "Nothings, great as always" I BORE MYSEEELF but at the same time i feel peace and i love my life. Im just scared i settled to early and that i should have more ''fun''

I think the societies values changed. When i was a Kid getting married was the most important things for adults. Now it feels like being married is embarassing LMAO 

I didn't marry bc i felt pressure to fulfill this dream of marriage, it was more so pure love and craving a stable home and love life which i have now...

Are there any people inrealationship or married that feel the same way?

btw sry for typos english isn't my first language!


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