Final Thoughts On The Table For You And Catch Me On My Contacts

So I want to let people know that if I'm logged out for a few days. That I'm fine and alive. Nothing has happened to me. I think I'm well aware of what my problem is and I've self discovered the problem and that is I'm trying to please everyone to like me. I get upset when my efforts go in vain. I become depressed and really sad and I go back into a shell and I just shut myself off around people. I think I'm done. Apparently I'm just not meant for a relationship. But I'm not selling myself to Only Fans. Getting guys to put money on my reloadable card. Or to post suggestive photos and as a mother I can't believe some parents would lose their modesty for cash and funds. Say what you want people got to make a living. But my dignity and pride as a mother worth is more worthful than money. I will not sell myself in a high s-e-x based relationship. I don't know how men or women have to have s-e-x every single day. I just don't get that. Zero at all or once a week. Can't you like function as a normal person? Cuddle and watch a movie or anime show or a funny YT video? But whatever I finally figured out that as well this stress of finding a new relationship or new friends is mentally and emotionally exhausting and is effecting my coherent and emotional reflection of myself and onto others. I think the time is now that I back away and self reflect. I guess the thing is I should be proud about of myself is I'm understanding my problem and taking care of the problem. I think self awareness takes years and upon years and each time you age every year there is a different part of you that you slowly start to understand and understanding the meaning behind as you didn't fully understand before or had theories or questions about what ever that problem is. You're more than welcome to reach me out on my contacts. But don't you see? I'm done trying. No I need to stop. My efforts isn't working and hasn't been working for awhile. I need too put an end to this and start taking care of myself. But speaking of myself I'm just glad that I'm taking care of the problem before thinks start to take an emotional toll on me and mentally before everything starts to get worse. You're probably thinking well why did you sign up to Space Hey Jupiter/Saturn? Well that's my true downfall about myself I'm always hopeful. Full of bashfulness and maybe there is a chance. My will is what drives my brain and heart. But I notice now this can't go on like this anymore. However I should also state as well that this is the main reason why I never message people that DO TALK TO ME. No matter if he or she would tell I'm not a bother. I won't believe that. I've been through so much in my life that I just my brain is probably damaged into pieces. I'm also not asking for people to feel sorry. I'm just expressing how I personal feel. I'm not trying to get anything out of people. Just being honest. Nothing more and Nothing less. Also I did read the Space Hey Jupiter/Saturn rules. Having three accounts isn't large. As I made my vow if I forget to log into this place as I self recover myself. I'm not signing up again because people have my contacts. My contacts information isn't going to change and I'm not deleting my contact info. Also if you do add my contact then YOU'VE READ MY PROFILE 100 PERCENT. THERE IS NO IFS OR BUTS that you're asking stuff about me and I say ''go read my profile'' because if I do that means you didn't read that all all.