Moi corny ass feelingz ;-; (first blog kinda nervous)

None of my friends will actually be there for me. Even the one's i consider my best friend/s

‎Like dont get me wrong I know they love me and all (?) but i cant think of the times when or have they been there for me when i needed them or whenever i feel down

‎Like when i talk about having problems and sad stuff blah blah blah they all either just go completely silent and leave me on read until someone speaks up a new different topic or ignore me. ‎This happens all the time.‎

‎There was a time i talked to one of them about it and he started apologizing and stuff which is good actually he told and promised me that he'll try and be there for me, but words are easily told than done, And promises are better off broken. He never did.‎

‎Im not really suprised though,this isn't the first time someone did this to me. ‎Im just kind of disappointed and embarrassed that i had actually hoped that someone will actually keep their promise since they're my best friend.

‎It still kind of hurts when you think about it, Cause i thought that person was (gonna be) like..my other half, the one who'd be with me thru thick and thin, the one's whos gonna stay with me forever, but now i know that not everyone's gonna stay forever, Everything in your life is temporary, and so are these friendship/s. i just have to learn and accept that. ‎hell even your parents could die at anyday from now on! ‎

‎But sometimes, i just wish that someone could just..be there for me you know? Atleast for a little while.‎

‎Temporariness is nothing new for me, ive lost people or something precious here and there in the past, hell even when i was too little to even remember!‎

‎(ps i wrote this not to shit on them, i just want to get this off my chest cause its been THEREE for awhile. I just dont have anyone to talk this with to)

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