Writing

I usually write how I'm feeling so I'm gonna post a little bit from my notes ^^. 

December 13th, 2025

Let me be buried deep in the ground where the cold soil will envelope me in an embrace, Then maybe I can finally break from the troubles of life and even myself with eternal resting as a hug that will never let go. 

There's no use for me if I can't love others the way they love me. I'm afraid all I can give is hurt and false hope for anybody who cares for me; Because in the end there's no hope for myself when I don't value my own life. you can't help someone who doesn't want to get better. 

I'm not going to grow wings, I'm not approaching a shiny gate in an everlasting happy place or be in peace. I'm going to be dead and gone without love, because it's something I couldn't learn to accept in the first place.