its not you

You asked me why and in that moment words failed me. 

I tripped and grasped at the remains of my recollection to explain to you the deepest aches in my heart. In the end all I could say was “we’re just too different” 

How else could I explain it?

You saw our future as a glistening stream of overflowing gold while I merely saw a ticking clock slowly counting down to our demise. 

You told the heaven and the stars of your love for me while I could barely tell the skeletons in my closets that I had the faintest feelings for you. 

You bounced on the tip of your toes while waiting for me to answer the door while I waited until the last possible second to open the door for you, to let you in, if only for a little while. 

You beamed with pride at the mere mention of my name while I rushed your name out in a single breathe hoping no one heard my small utterance.