Help me, im confused???!!

I kinda made out with my friend.

Honestly i dont know what to say right now. Banana (we gave him that nickname in my previous blog) and I kissed in our latest meet up. I dont know how it happened but still... we met up for a cup of coffee and chat like normal people. he talked about college stuff, i talked about mine, we chatted about communism etc. etc. after a while later we decided to go to the seaside and drink something. thats when it happened actually. we were sitting in a bench, drinking beer and he was talking about the thesis he wants to write about like a typical nerd. I was listening and telling my opinion about his thesis. He was completely drunk btw so we decided to walk for a while. but meanwhile, when all of this was happening, i was squeezing his cheeks and trying to warm my hand on them. anyways we were ragebaiting each other, joking and laughing like crazy people. then he says that i cant dare to kiss him. i dont know what was i thinking at that moment but i kissed him on the lips. I dont know what was i thinking but i know for a fact that i wasnt drunk. 

anyways nothing happened afterwards. we kept walking to the subway and laughing. while we were waiting for the train to come we kept chatting. we kissed, chatted, laughed, made out, laughed. i felt like i was in one of those french movies from 1960s. like the black-white ones where fl and ml both have existencial crises and find comfort in each other for a short timeline. just like that ones. anyways. we were gonna go different ways but he waited with me until my train comes. he asked me if i like him or not. i didnt have an answer so i asked the question back to him, 'do you like me?'. He laughed and said that he wouldnt kiss someone he didnt like. i laughed but im still confused. i kissed him one more time before i get on the train.

so... i dont know what to ask actually but im confused. btw i asked him again when we were texting in the morning after that night if he likes me or not. and he exactly told me this: 'if you have asked this before the kiss i would say no, but right now i wanna say maybe a little'. like????? anyways im still confused so im open to some advice haha.

xoxo