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Hi, this is an update on my life or my problems, it's the same thing. (Sorry for my bad English, it's not my first language)

Well, lately I have a lot of fictional love scenarios and now I long for a love like the one I imagine in my mind (I don't know if you understand me) but anyway, that has made me feel pathetic I want to have a partner simply because I imagine there's a man out there who loves only me, who is the love of my life, and who doesn't care how incredibly weird I can be. As if someone like that existed...  -_- 

Honestly, I think I don't have a partner because I'm weird and scares men away, or maybe because I'm really ugly. My friends say I'm not, but I don't believe them, If it were true, I'd already have a boyfriend or more friends. 

All I can do is wait for a miracle to happen and for someone to like me, but spending all day imagining fictional romantic scenarios it's more fun