Things that need to be talked about.

I just wanna talk a bit about my sexuality because it’s been lowkey killing me. Around 2022, when I was still younger, I dated a trans guy, so I thought I was straight, but before he came into my life I used to say with my whole chest that I was a lesbian and I genuinely felt like one. After a while we broke up. I was in 7th grade back then and now I’m in high school, and I’m still confused about my sexuality because it’s not just about labels, it’s about how I actually feel. I don’t know if I’m bi or a lesbian, but I’ve always felt like I’m a lesbian, especially since my first kiss was with a girl, so why wouldn’t I be, you know? But sometimes I see men and I’m like damn he’s fine and then suddenly I feel nothing, and later I’ll end up being attracted to completely different guys. But I love women, like I really love women, the smell, the way they put on lip gloss, the way their bodies look, the texture of their skin, all of it drives me crazy. I honestly wish I was straight because where I live people are super religious and lowkey prejudiced, and on top of that I’m a fat girl, like really fat, so I’ve never really been seen as attractive by guys or girls. Anyway, I’m only 16 and I can still change my body, but even so I genuinely don’t know if I’m bi or a lesbian and it’s slowly messing me up. So yeah, this was my vent on Saturday, December 20th, 2025