updates just because.....

life has lowkey SUCKED recently..... okay, so it's not like my whole world is ending or anything but it's definitely been less than great. i'm like... inexplicably miserable. well, maybe not completely inexplicably, some bad shit HAS happened. lost my job because the company sucked ass, my stepdad destroyed our house during some drunk tantrum he had WHILE I WAS HOME so now i'm lowkey traumatized from that (which is part of why i didn't blog last month, sorry chat), my dad's getting EXTRA on my ass about getting a job and driving now that new years is getting close and is threatening to MAKE me get a job and my license (which. good luck with that lmfao i'm an adult now you can't MAKE me do shit. especially when i'm ALREADY WORKING ON STUFF) like omfg.... nobody can leave me tf alone for five seconds it's SUCH BULLSHIT. i'm miserable and it's literally everyone's fault. except for my friends. they're awesome <3.

speaking of friends, my irl friend comes home from college soon so maybe they'll be able to save me from the sad sack of shit that is my life right now!!!! even if only in temporary bursts. temporary distraction is better than no distraction!!!!! we're currently watching angels of death and a playthrough of metroid dread, so........ some pretty cool shit B).

i've gotten super into teletubbies recently, which SUCKS because when you get a new hyperfixation right before the holidays it's almost IMPOSSIBLE to ask for merch of it for christmas.... oh well. at least now i have some ideas for whenever i finally bust out the pin maker i got as a gift LAST christmas. i feel bad for not using it yet, but we've moved around a lot since i've gotten it and FINALLY settled into a more permanent household (dad's side btw, my mom hasn't moved since i was a toddler). but i did go christmas shopping with my grandma yesterday and got some teletubbies stuff, so i'll be getting at least two pieces of merch for christmas!!! yay!!!

that's all for now. thank you so much for reading and i hope you have a good day/night! i love you all!!! <3