someone close ruined our almost decade long friendship AGAIN

i dont know why this keeps happening... 8/9 times someone has risked and not cared about our sacred friendship. it hurts alot, but im not really suprised. shit is annoying... im moving to their city and they dont even wanna talk to me like a civilised human. instead, belittle and mug me off through text. i dont even men shit for you to call me.. i just dont understand how someone can be so hurtful and selfish and then talk about how light and airy they are since becoming spiritual... like yes, you can still feel human emotions and get angry, or jealous, or sad. it isnt all rainbows and shit. but since turning to the light and looking hard and deep within yourself, how do you still find the time to throw hurtful words and behaviours towards someone who has been there through thick and thin even after every other time you fuck them off and put them to the side, until you remember they arent there for you like ive been. then you dust me off, we are friends for a few months, and then it is back to the hatred and rudeness and cold shoulder. so frustrating...