double life

i happen to be a cheerleader but i did it only because i wanted something new and honestly it sucks because they all have the same personality sorta and i feel out of place. and being in a team comes with having to sit with them at lunch when you have NOOOone else. i dont belong in any group at that lunch period at all especially not there but tjey welcomed me so i did, its been a few weeks and i noticed they make fun of people. i get upset obvio and i say something to them at times but i realized theyre making fun of people for things that I LIKE. theyre pretty nice to me but they dont know how i really am, they called the others "weird  kids" "anime kids" "gay kids" and thats legit what people used to call me. i happen to fw those other kids tho and i dunno being labeled the cheerleader of the school kinda scares off some people idk why, it is not the 80's anymore cheerleaders dont even get that hype. JUST PLEASE I LOVE ANIME AS MUCH AS YOU DO YES I STILL PLAY DOKI DOKI AFTER YEARS AND I LISTEN TO SHIT YOU DO TOO JUST NOTICE ME IM NOT MEAN but luckily id say i have a pretty outgoing personality i usuallt am goofy to people so they might see 20% of my personality and well id say im nice to others but before anything is said i have been distant with the other cheerleaders, i have no issue with them whatsoever but i dont like being around negative energy like that. especially because theyre making fun of people who have done nothing wrong i literally love people and even tjo i dont know the other group like tjat i love them too pues