I AM A JERK

I LOVED HER SO SO SO MUCH, I DIDNT KNOW I WAS ACTUALLY ABLE TO LOVE PEOPLE TILL I LOST HER. I LEFT HER BECAUSE I KNEW I WAS BAD FOR HER AND THAT WE WERE ONLZ GONNA TEAR EACH OTHER APART BUT NOW ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS THE MEMORIES AND THE FACT IM NEVER GONNA EXPERIENCE SOMETHING LIKE HER EVER AGAIN. IT IS GONE. AND SHE IS GOING TO MOVE ON AND TALK TO HER NEW PARTNER ABOUT ME THE SAME WAY SHE WOULD TALK TO ME ABOUT HER OTHER EXES. IM NOT THE GOOD ONE ANYMORE. FUCK THIS SHIT. I DONT DESERVE TO BE SITTING HERE RIGHT NOW, I DONT DESERVE TO BE BREATHING THIS AIR. SHE IS GOING TO GET HURT ALL BECAUSE I COULDNT KEEP HER UNDER MY EYE, ALL BECAUSE I GAVE UP ON TRYING TO MAKE US BETTER. FUCK