Sigh...I don't know what to do

English isn't my first language so please excuse my grammar.

The truth is, I don't know what to do. I've been in several relationships already, and only one lasted more than a year, and that was with my ex-best friend of over 10 years. I've dated both girls and guys, but the problem is always me. I'm usually the one who ends the relationship first, but I never have a good reason... one day I just woke up and felt like I didn't see a future with that person. I'm terrified of commitment; every time someone mentions marriage or gets too clingy, I freak out and break up with them the next day. I don't know if it's because all my relationships are long-distance or online... I'm afraid of being alone, and I wish I knew what it felt like to have someone with me that I could see regularly, go on dates with, or even just hug... I don't know what to do.

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Jūßtīń Çæßę

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I'm no expert here but since you've reached out, well I'll first say grammar isn't your problem , at all.
It's more like the fact that you claim to want someone but when you have that someone you push them away, only to want some one again and the endless toxic cycle repeats itself, damaging not only yourself but others too.
If you cannot make it work long distance and you yearn the more physical relationship, then you should be honest with yourself and others, don't play with people especially if they've done nothing wrong to deserve it.
But lemme just say, getting a physical relationship won't just make the problem of your attachment issues go away overnight.
No one is perfect but we should always strive to be the better version of ourselves. You need to sit and have a serious talk with yourself. Make changes and try again.
Good luck and peace

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Thanks, dude. I'll look into what you said because it low-key helps

by l0bot0my_r4t; 1766119101; Report

Hey, no worries , we sometimes just need to be reminded of the things we already knew. Life is hectic lately. A lil support doesn't hurt.
Guidance.

by Jūßtīń Çæßę; 1766119640; Report