Girly girl

Growing up as a young boy surrounded by female cousins and siblings has shaped me in ways I can't explain. The hand-me-downs, the feminine cups, the room me and my sister shared always catering to be feminine. I'm not sure why my parents thought that would not shape me.

Given my small frame and feminine face I'm often mistaken for a woman. While there is nothing wrong with being confused, it does get a little overbearing at times. When I say I'm a guy people assume I'm transgender or joking. There is nothing wrong with either of those things, but it sucks when you're being serious. 

From the constant dms on Snapchat, to the many many blocks within it too. I will be added for the obvious reason, only for my gender to be revealed to their dismay of thinking they'd get anything. Long hair, makeup, a piercing that is considered feminine to some, and even my voice have changed due to being around women my whole life.

If I could grow taller I would, it's not my fault I wasn't fed much as a kid though. Standing at 4'7 at 18 is certainly not ideal for a male. If I hadn't been in the same relationship since I was 12 I'm sure no one would interact with me.

I can never catch a break, constantly being put down. "Cut your hair!" "isn't that for girls?" "Well you're not like.. a GUY GUY" No, I'm a male through and through. You can be a feminine guy, you can be a male feminist, or you can choose to do what I do and let the rude comments of strangers effect you.

Either way, I do plan to cut my hair sometime. I would love to do an emo haircut but I'm not sure if I will have time. Also, I'm not sure if it'll look good. Since I was little I've been growing out the same weird middle part. I miss having short hair but I'm really scared of messing it up. Thank you for reading my blog that turned out to be more venty than I wanted.