thoughts

i think being blocked was for the better. 

they openly didnt like me, i dont know why they kept me around. 

tried to get others to block me, this could have been resolved.

after i got blocked the first time, i knew something was off. 

they chose those people over me TWICE.

after i warned them, after i put all that effort in to try to help them get better.

but what did it do? absolutely nothing.

i put so much time in to help, i spent so many sleepless nights just making sure they were okay. 

i feel like a bad friend. 

but i know that i did the best i could. i was a good friend.

ill always love and care for this person, that will never change.

but i dont think we are fit to be friends, if i can be honest.

i dunno, i really want to be friends, but with the way things are going and the fact they choose these toxic people over me, after literally agreeing and promising they wouldnt go back, what can i really do? 

i cant put up with it anymore, it was hurting me mentally and i dont understand how i was able to do this for so long. 

again, i love and care about said person but if they are able to block me multiple times, maybe they really dont want me in their life.

maybe they really didnt value our friendship.

maybe they really did hate me all along. 

i might be better off without them and thats okay.

i hope they do alright, i really do.

the door will always be open for them to come back if they need somebody. 

but i dont think we would be able to be friends again, at least not for a while.

until theyre able to understand their mistakes and learn that what they did was wrong, i cannot do it.

maybe if they earn my trust again, i can think about it, but as of now, i dont think i can do it.

im just starting to do well in life and im finally happy.

F helped me a lot, im still slightly iffy because they also went back to said people before but theyre slowly earning my trust back.

i dunno, this is random but its been on my mind, i appreciate those who took the time to read this.

i hope you have a wonderful day/night!

and to the person this is about, i know you may not read this since you blocked me, but ill be here for you if you need me, even if you hate me.