Wendnsday, 17, 2025 (venting)

Today just realised how much my boyfriend despises that i talk about im felling to him.

Even if he was the one asking how i was feeling and asked what was wrong and i got a little bit esqueptical about telling him anything cause i already knew he wouldnt like that I was just little bit mad at all.

Even tho i knew he wouldnt like it I told him what i felt about hes father looking at me when i leave the bedroom like i was some kind of monster and how when im alone at home with hes father how he leaves hes own room when he hears me leave mine and how he always talks to me while i try to go and take a shower and how all that makes me feel unconfortable.

After that he got in a bad mood and started texting hes dad about all that stuff and how hes tired that everyone is talking about their problem to him in the morning.

And its always like this.. I get a little upset and he say "Youre always mad. I dont know how you want our realacionship to work like this" and that makes me more upset and i dont know what he wants me to do.

I always let him talk about hes problems even tho its always about the same thing, even yesterday he was texting hes dad to say he shouldnt feel bad when he talks bad to him.

Im just gonna decide never to vent to him again and try and do it here whenever i feel sad or upset.