uni is hard

i mean, obviously university is hard, right? that's why it's considered higher education. but jesus FUCK, i'm studying something i lowkey hate and i've committed for the next three years and exams are coming up and it's terrifying. 

it really makes you think.

if i die in a week, i'll die miserable and having lived the past nine years of my life miserable with my day-to-day, because it's not like school was any better. but if i live for years and years, i'll have a solid foundation to y'know... not starve to death when i'm older. probably. i mean, with the way the economy is looking, that isn't really a guarantee anyway. 

is it all really worth it? is it worth sacrificing so many years of my life to doing things i really don't want to do, just to MAYBE get a job that i possibly ALSO don't really want to do? will i look back on my life and deem it wasted? 

i hope not.