⋆｡°✩ pls read this warning im begging

‼️❕before you read the warning Please do be aware that i am actively trying to work on myself to ease the symptoms and the disorders themselves, im in dbt and cbt therapy along with medications, im also trying to learn how to be a better person social wise, and if you read the below, its not that im not trying to get better it just happens to still go on while i try to get better and it will take some time for me to adjust to being typical social wise and emotional wise.

I don't typically type like this but i changed my tone of text for this to show the seriousness of it all,,,‼️

(THIS IS A LIVE BLOG BTW AND ILL START DATING THE DAYS I MAKE EDITS AND CHANGES (but ive never blogged before so if not ill js reupload))

(The starred [★ ] and BOLDED messages are the most important to read)

Before you jump right into following me or friending me, id like to warn you that i am very mentally ill. and no i dont mean the quirky internet trends where people think its fun to be sick. It is a disease for me and ive seen the damage ive done firsthand, even though i don't mean it it STILL happens.

★ I have BPD (borderline personality disorder or emotional un-regulation personality disorder) and i suffer from it VERY STRONGLY, my biggest/most severe bpd symptom is splitting, (black and white thinking) please be aware that how i act when i split isn't entirely me for the majority of the time and i will rationalize eventually. along with the continuous struggle with anxiety, autism spectrum disorder (ASD) and the side effects that come with all of the above mentioned.

-I don't want your input on if i have my disorders or not bc for some reason people think its ok to do that?? idk bro ,,,, i DONT care if you talked to ur therapist about what you THINK you know about me, let me handle my own things damn
(^ if this feels targeted its not, this has actually happened on numerous occasions to the point i need to mention it now  :/ )

-In general i am currently lacking to be emotionally and socially stable, i can also have an absence of responsibility and accountability (as of 12/16/25) but im working on it so hopefully i can remove this soon,

★ i don't understand social cues or when someone is uncomfortable with what im doing, nor do i understand what is something appropriate to talk about and not. My humor is a little off beat at times and im saying all of this because although I'm doing REALLY well on my healing journey i still make mistakes.

-I had a disorganized attachment that has worsened into a fully functioning avoidant attachment, my bad if i dont talk to u or refuse to get close to u its not you i swear

-One of the less severe things is that i have lowkirkuinely terrible memory and ill deadass forget sum stupid shit i do, js remind me and ill take responsibility for it

-I tend to misword things by accident 

★ PLEASE FUCKING COMMUNICATE WITH ME ABOUT SHIT IM DOING IF IT UPSETS U OR WORRIES YOU DAMMIT I WONT SNIPE YOU I PINKY PROMISE PLEASE IM BEGGING IVE LOST TOO MANY PEOPLE TO THIS ISSUE thx 🥀

cool beans THANK YOU FOR READING! bye
(yes i moved this from my main profile i got sick of seeing that enormous block of text it ruined any layout i made or chose) 

Update Log:

(updated 12/16/25, 8:56pm)