I think I hate my friends

I have two new friends (I'm going to call them D and M) in my Graphic Design class which I'm really happy about but I'm thinking that I'm starting to hate them. Each day they are starting to become more annoying and I'm starting to pick at their flaws more.

Like today, my class had taken our final exam yesterday so today was just a free day so for shits and giggles I was taking a 'are you gay?' quiz with D when M made a joke about taking one and being a lesbian. M is a guy. I find men who make these jokes so fucking annoying, disrespectful, and unfunny. He also made a 'joke' about being bad at scissoring and like I hope you are because you are a man. Men don't know how to fucking scissor, dumbass.

D also makes a lot of jokes about my sexuality, specifically me turning out to being straight. She constantly asks if I have started liking men/when will I start liking men and Like I get that many of her 'lesbian' friends turned out not to be lesbians but these jokes are constant and soooooo freaking annoying to hear almost every freaking day. And honestly, I can even say that they are disrespectful because why are you needing to question about my sexuality basically daily when you, yourself are not straight too!

And today, M made a comment about me not being a real woman b/c we got into a joke fight at first. I was born a cis gender woman. And when I said that this was rude and kinda transphobic, he said 'so you are faking' basically imply that I am trans and why it's transphobic. I'm not. I don't really identify with any trans gender terms except Gender non conforming because it is literally the only term that technically fits me; I don't feel like I even have a gender, the best way I can describe how I see my gender is just a whole lot of nothing- just empty space.

When I had short hair, I had gotten a lot of weird trans comments from my family all basically imply that I wanted to be a boy b/c I had cut my hair short when though the only reason why it was cut short was because I had gotten so depressed that I stopped brushing my hair so my hair got all messed up. And when I wanted to get out of my depression I cut off my hair because it was the only way to properly fix my hair and started slowly taking care of myself more. I feel like I can never view myself as a woman b/c of these comments.

I feel like it is just rude/transphobic to call even a cis woman not a real woman. Also that faking comment was weird as fuck.

Another thing I hate about M is that he is fake edgy pussy. He will go on and make unfunny jokes mostly about rape but then draws the line at saying the R slur. The worst part is that he said 'restarted' b/c he 'didn't want to get in drama' or some stupid shit like that. Like sure dude. Sure. I already hate edgy people but I hate fake edgy people even more. Like just say that slur at that point, like whats the point of replacing it if you're just going to use a word that basically is the slur.

M also makes constant comments about him being black. Like anytime I say anything that even so slightly against him, he says that I'm only doing it b/c he's black. And this is constant. Almost every fucking day I will say something about him as a joke and he will always say that it's b/c he's black. No it's because you're fucking annoying and stupid. He also constantly tries to make jokes but they are just a bunch of stolen unfunny edgy jokes that are shitly retold.

We have each others phone numbers but we barely talk and I only share one class with them so I'm kinda hoping when this school is over we stop talking and they forget about me.