awful day-16.12.2025

I havnr been humilliated like thid in like a long while. To put it shortly, my teacher (without my permission) made half of my presentation for me. I got nervous while I was presenting and skipped most of it, because it had really fancy language which i very obviously didnt write. I showed my finished work and all i got told was that i have potential and if this is a sketch or the finished painting. 

I'm on the bus with my friend and the teacher calls me and she's like "don't worry about the grade, it just means you'll have to work more in future, i know you can paint better, i know you can do it more freely"

the grade wasnt horrible, 6/10 but i still feel very miserable. Why would i even choose to do art about my personal experience and not smt like everyone else like making a flower pot out of ceramics or something. Also its pretty much the best i couldve possibly done. I have never felt more humiliated. Why did i even think its good??? Why was i ever proud of it??? Why was I ever eexcited to show people something so deeplu personal to me just for it to get ripped apart?? Should i even fucking want art as my career.

-elionroute66wantstokhs