Report Blog Entry
im not gonna sugarcoat this
the title is cheesy 💔 sorry, okay so
firstly, this is samon's blog: https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2017880. this is mostly what i will be talking about today. all of the content inside of it is true. let me explain
firstly, xtzz and yuri were being racist about indians, i dont know the specific time but im pretty sure i saw that when i was in a car. me, being at that time very happy, decided to not read through it fully in order to stay happy at the salon/hairdresser i was going to. i regret not doing that, a lot. i skimmed through the messages and replied to people who tagged me before leaving.
going back a tiny bit, i have a rule. a very specific one about tickling. i have it because my rap1st used to tickle me and i felt gross even hearing the word. i regret not telling you all that, thats on me. but the thing is, samon broke that rule by sending a gif of it; to which i overreacted and held a grudge over him. im sorry for that. i should have told you. im sorry.
okay, so, back on track, i was at a café in front of the salon when i saw the message of victory calling out how i overreacted about samon breaking my rule but then underreacted when yuri and xxtz were being racist. i responded that I couldn't control someone's opinion, but that i could control if someone mentioned something or not and then apologized (which was hypocritical of me)
i regret not doing anything, to the point i honestly wish i could go back and time and delete everything. i wish i could. but i cant. i cant fix anything with just an apology, and i know that. but it still hurts. it hurts a lot. i wish everything could go back to normal, like it always has, but it cant.
so, samon left the server and blocked me (understandably) on both spacehey and discord. i apologized to him on my alt account, but i kind of. broke down? im gonna be perfectly honest, i cried a lot. it was my fault. it was my fault for not doing anything, it was my fault for not taking accountability in the first place and making a bulletin saying it didn't include everything that happened. i now understand that it didnt have to. yuri's, xxtz's and my apologies mean nothing if we don't do anything about our actions.
im sorry to everyone. but im sorry the most to samon. i should have reacted, and i wish i had. im really sorry. im sorry i didnt do anything. im sorry i overreacted just because you sent a stupid gif that you probably didn't even mean anything bad by. im sorry, even if that doesn't mean anything
yuri and xxtz, i think you should think about your actions. an apology is something, but not enough. i hope you've changed your opinion, not just about india, but about racism in general. you shouldn't judge people by anything but themselves. only someone's actions and words define who they are, not what the media made them to be.
thanks for reading. this is a reminder that your words can impact people, even if you don't want them to. everything can go wrong, even if you don't want it to. so change. guilt doesn't change anything, but your actions do. guilt doesn't make you a better person, just a sadder one.
i love you all. be the best versions you can of yourself.
your daily kuriko worshipper,
m1s4
(feel free to ask any questions!! and also feel free to remind me if i missed something, i will fix it as soon as i can)
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Samon(FAIRY GAYFATHER)
I am glad you apologized and are taking accountability
however I still won't unblock you and you probably won't be able to reply to this blog comment
instead of blaming everything on yourself or guilt tripping, a simple genuine apology shows that you care and want to improve
all the best
ちひろ 💬
sorry if this is a really stupid question, but which Yuri ?
yurinator
by ꒰୨୧◞ 。m1s4⠀.ᐟ // kuriko's wife .🍓 n1 shoujo girl!!; ; Report
ahh ok
im gonna block her
by ちひろ 💬; ; Report
nvm
she unfriended everyone
by ちひろ 💬; ; Report
I'll give you the link to block me
by ♡𝒥ℴ𝓁𝓁𝓎 Yurinator 🍥||🍰KURO'S WIFE\\<:{DON'T FQ}!; ; Report
i dont want to anymore i feel bad when i do
i GUESS ill forgive you, everybody deserves another chance.
by ちひろ 💬; ; Report
oh
sorry, I was expecting that
Thank you for letting me have another chance.
I was going to make a blog apologising as well but I thought no one is going to see it and even if they do, they'll think I'm not being sincere.
But I am truly sorry and I am learning from my mistake.
I hope maybe others will see this too? I do not know, though.
Again, I'm sorry.
by ♡𝒥ℴ𝓁𝓁𝓎 Yurinator 🍥||🍰KURO'S WIFE\\<:{DON'T FQ}!; ; Report
wasn't*
by ♡𝒥ℴ𝓁𝓁𝓎 Yurinator 🍥||🍰KURO'S WIFE\\<:{DON'T FQ}!; ; Report
yuri, i think yoh should make the blog apologizing. samon said he wasn't going to unblock me but i think you should try
by ꒰୨୧◞ 。m1s4⠀.ᐟ // kuriko's wife .🍓 n1 shoujo girl!!; ; Report
No, it's okay.
I don't really think anyone should be my friend because I never think before I say anything. And I don't want to upset Samon and anyone else again so I won't be making one.
by ♡𝒥ℴ𝓁𝓁𝓎 Yurinator 🍥||🍰KURO'S WIFE\\<:{DON'T FQ}!; ; Report
maciel
testing. testing. can i comment?
okay, good. i can. you can't reply, i think.
anyways, just wanted to say i'm glad that you at least said something about it.
as said before - i am not going back to that server nor i am unblocking all of those that i did block, but i'd rather see y'all at least become better people rather than guilt trip.
wishing you the best
by maciel; ; Report