i cant sleep

i dont know how to tell my parents how im worried that there might be something wrong with me neurologically, i've been getting some symptoms and i have been overly stressed since then. now every day just feels like i'm waiting to die and now nothing really seems exciting anymore. i simply made this account to make it, to just do something and maybe make a friend but idk everything seems pointless. in the future i either die or maybe dont die and have a stroke that may affect my health crucially or maybe i am just being overly sensitive and that i actually dont have any neural issues. no one is texting me, no one talks to me but thats kind of my own fault since i have butchered my reputation and made myself seem like an absolutely unapproachable person. and now i constantly try to drown out my feelings and forget by feeding my mind the juices of internet slop. not like skibidi toilet or anything but things that i love a little too much. its like drugs, i dont know. 

kudos for me woohoo