my old stuff was wack

I lwk crashed tf out and left the face of the earth for months but im back!! I went thru some of my old stuff and im not sure if I regret posting that or not

im currently sleeping downstairs bc:

1. im not crazy, but my room is haunted dude. im deadass. the ghost is harmless but he's annoying and creepy, usually I love hanging out with the dead bc no ones judging u, cus yk, they're dead. but this mf is annoying 

2. my guinea pigs are fighting hella and I gotta watch them to make sure they don't kill each other 

anyway idk I js wna yap but none of my friends are awake rn bc my sleep schedule is WACK. I woke up from a "nap" at 10 pm

also xmas is coming up yay!!! I rlly want a cat but ik that won't happen bc my mom says we already got a cat but that mf is my moms cat, not ours. plus he always either hates me or he js doesn't want anything to do with me, but he'll be all buddy buddy with my mom? ok simba I see how it is. but yea I want a cat that I can name them something weird like heavy or murdoc. yes after the metal family character or the gorillaz dude. also im not allowed in the closet bc my mom is wrapping presents yay! but that means all my clothes are js in the bathroom dawg what. also there are hella giant boxes. I thought my mom was broke, wtf did she get me that could be that big? I asked for a full body mirror and a new tv, but I didn't think id actually get a tv. my tv is tiny and hasn't been working for years so I thought id get an equally low quality tv. but even if I got a tv AND a mirror, wtf else could be that big? there are like 5 boxes that are HUGE

yes I've been speculating on this for days, no my life doesn't get interesting. im gonna treat this like my diary lwk, writing with a pencil for too long hurts my hand so my journal js turned into a sketchbook. also I haven't had much human interaction other than my parents and playing games on facetime like twice this week. im going insane omfg. I've been taking really super long showers bc it's like the only time I feel normal when life gets like this. everyone's busy but me. like I feel like a failure cus im not in school, I don't have a job, and even though I've been begging for things like art classes, a tattoo gun, and silicone skin to practice on, I don't have anything productive to do. I found my old flute but I can't do much with it. I don't remember how to read sheet music. and I still don't have an amp for my bass. IVE HAD A BASS FOR TWO YEARS!! and I don't even have a license or car. ig I have to wait a year and a half for that but still, I have a lot of friends with cars so I js feel unproductive. 

sorry didn't mean to vent on y'all, if anyone reads this

okay bye bye

I felt like that one video of gabbie hanna typing while writing this

ok im gonna go do my makeup and take laying down macbook pics 

or watch death note and go to sleep even tho I've only been awake for 4 hours

im gnat make like reeses and peaces

that was corny I wanted to try that out tho

okay bye fr this time