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Help do I have DID

if anyone here has DID or any kind of dissociation disorder can I get some help, idk if this is DID or smth else but I'm almost sure it's DID? 

Okay so basically, this has been going on for a while but it rlly started happening around like 2019-2022 when my parents starting being really distant (ik now they were gettin super high) but whenever I started gettin neglected as a child my mind starting forming people inside of my head and I would talk to them and I would live as a person inside of my head and I'd have conversations with the other people inside my head. I had spoken to doctors at the psych ward about this and they suggested I had psychosis, which I might do as well cuz I see shit n stuff but it didn't explain what was happening. 

A lot of those people in my head have came and went, but 2 have always stuck around. One is a main, usually always the personality I'll adapt and I'm mostly that person inside my head but it switches from time and time. There's also one person in my head who's never acknowledged my existence, doesn't front, doesn't speak to me at all, kinda acting like a ringmaster for the other people up in there. I have recently developed 2 other people(?) in my head who just kinda randomly spawned. Mind you all these people are characters from either a movie or show, but one recently came who isn't from anything and is literally just a personality.

I thought I had MPD (multiple personality disorder) until these people started fronting. Like literally taking over my body. When one takes over, sometimes I can't remember anything that identity did. I go into my head (headspace?) While that person takes over, yet I can hear all the other people in my head too. I will LITERALLY BECOME these people sometimes and I can feel them coming when one decides to front I'll hella dissociate and I can also trigger them to front. 


In conclusion, do I have DID? These people in my head take over my body, and I constantly hear them in my head and sometimes they half front where they haven't COMPLETELY taken over just partially like Im them inside my head. 

Basically how I can describe this is that the inside of my mind is a car, I am always either in the drivers seat or passenger seat. When I get tired from driving someone from the back or my passenger (host) will take over. Sometimes we help each other drive tho, if that makes sense? 

Can someone help me 🙏


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