(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) hi, should i face my fears or just shut up and do it

so i'll start off by saying hi, I'm faith you can call me ghostfaiff or faiff! 

i looooooove youtube and I have since I was a kid (I'm 25 now btw) that being said it wasn't really something I was proud of bc it wasn't always as cool and popular as it is now. I've been posting videos to my channel on and off and my dream is to be consistent but something is stopping me. fear I guess??? idk?? fear of being seen ( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;) 

idk but should I just stfu and make videos because I have an actual list of video ideas and I feel like they are just rotting away in my brain.

i want to make deep dives on the media I consume I think like movies and tv shows. right now I've never made anything like that so idk how it would go but I kind of just want to film whatever I want. life is too short why not? 

maybe...perhaps